Just when you thought it was safe...

»the events of this weekend were totally out of my control...

»thursday was a great night. I love hanging out with my peoples...they are hilarious, serious, realistic, optimistic...just everything...even when they pluck my nerves...

»the tax gods saw fit to give me my tax return this weekend...just in time.

»I still can't decide on a new album of the week...*sigh*

»I told myself [and Shu] that I was going out this weekend with every intention to just have fun and enjoy spending time with my friends and drink...blah, blah, blah...and what do you know? I meet someone...shit...

»everyone is looking for cupid...and I seem to be that 'person'...I do give good advice...even if I don't take it myself...

»I have an injured toe....and it's all Ling's fault...

»sometimes I forget my mommie is a fraidy ol lady....she looks so young...lol *I love you, mommie*

»I need a passport....ASAP

»I can't wait til summer vacation!!!

»EJ's birthday is thursday...that means it's 'go hard or go home' weekend!

»I need to go to the gym...

*peace.love.music*

I tried...

1/ alot of things have been causing me to rethink...

2/ would you believe it? The apartment we're moving to is about 5 mins from almond joy...

3/....but he'll never know it...

4/ Why are states trying to issue formal apologies for slavery? Do they feel that it will erase centuries of racism and discrimination? Is it a pass to keep white folk from keeping us down? I don't get it...

5/don't issue apologies....it's WAAAYYY too late for that...

6/Love vs Money got a 74 on Okayplayer....as much as I love the album, i didn't think it would break 70...oops

7/...another teen dies at the hands of a cop with a taser...what the fuck is going on???!! They haven't learned their lesson? You kill hundreds of people...TURN THE VOLTAGE DOWN!!! especially when dealing with kids...like maybe they should have a dial for each type of person. Like: 'child', 'teen', 'woman', 'man', 'big ass muthafucka'

8/Why does it have to be so cold in the first days of spring? It was 30 degrees on my way to work this morning...POPPYCOSH! I'm ready to break out my mini skirts, sundresses, and pumpum shorts!

9/i'm thinking about buying a desert eagle...it's one sexxxy gun...

10/i'm moving to maryland...well back to maryland in the other side of the beltway...

11/ I think our generation will have the highest rate of deaf elderly thanks mostly in part to 'the boomin system', iPods, and Bose 'over the ear' high-def headphones...and that's fine. I just gotta brush up on my ASL

12/ I will no longer be planning events for ANYONE! I'ma be doing what I wanna do...if you wanna get down...meet me there.

13/I fucking LOVE Kid Cudi!!! He could do nothing but write in his blog all day and I'd be pleased....but his music makes me *swoon*

14/Other people's blogs are like my personal form of therapy...without the outrageous bill...

15/Lupe has a new album dropping....WHOO! I can't wait! But this retirement thing is really getting to me...why?

16/If I go longer than a day without checking 2dopeboyz, I have so much to catch up on. I've been on for the last hour just tryna catch up on the past 4days

17/I'm sick and tired of being asked about those no longer in the picture...if they were still around, i'd bring them up...but i didn't, so move on...I did

18/I'm thinking about getting a reading...like a tarot card reading...

19/or a tattoo....

20/I'm waiting patiently and watching intently for any info on Rock The Bells 2009. As soon as the tix go in sale I'll be purchasing the biggest package...12 hours in extreme heat==best mega concert of the year

21/writing blogs while reading blogs is uber fun

*off to twitter land and bed*

**peace.love.music**

let em try to find the beauty in your face

**So my birthday was past weekend....WHOOOO!!! 23!! This was one of the best birthdays I've had in the longest time! Lots of partying...lots of drinking...lots of cake...and I didn't even have to plan it...much...
I'm so thankful for the people I have in my life. Even with they dance on that last nerve like it's a salsa dance floor *and yall DO* I wouldn't trade them for the world! They make me laugh...think...they give good advice...they make the world alot less lonely.

**The Dream's new album, 'Love vs Money' is supposed to drop tomorrow, but of course the MuSiC gods have seen fit to let me have it early. Everyone *whose music opinion I respect/trust* said that it was just 'Ehhh....not at good as the first one' My opinion? I think it's pretty good. I do agree, it's not as good as the first...but, honestly? What artist(s) do you know that have come hard with a second album that blast the first out of the water? Especially that specializes in the art of autotune? I definitely don't think his lyrics are as strong as the last album..and he seems to be really trying to sing this go round *some artists should just stick to autotune--DREAM* But I think the music is better than the last. Maybe this should have just been put out as an instrumental. *one last note:: is it just me, or does he sound a lil like R.Kelly??

**This daylight savings time is really kicking my ass...but I think I'm on the come back.

**I'm so glad it's warm!!! It feels so nice to not have to sit close to a heater *and burn my ass...literally* and I can get in the car and open the sunroof! WHOOO! Time to go shopping for dresses!!

**Thank you Santa Maria on the cross for my bonus!!! Corporate America does so right by you round the end of the fiscal year...then taxes hit...but I thank ya anyway!

**When are people gonna leave Rihanna and Chris Brown alone? They seem to have gotten over it..forgiven each other...why can't everyone else? If she wants to be a crazy ass bitch and go back to him *whether he beat her down or not* then let the bitch be!

**I need some new iPod headphones...

**Almond Joy's time is wearing thin...real thin...

**Twitter is becoming a serious thing. All of my favorite people 'tweet' ALL DAY AND NIGHT! I'm trying to get into it like that where I converse back and forth with folk..but I doubt it will get like that...

**I'm heading to Busboys and Poets sometime this week...anyone wanna join me???

"Is that that crazy ass angry ni**@?!" ~Ling

...yes...

...and I'll say now [with new album **Never Better** blasting from the iPod] exactly what I said then [circa **Audition**Bleeding Hearts Club*]::

...just because he was angry at a GCH concert DOES NOT take away from the undeniable talent he has as an artist!! If I was him, I'da been angry too...all those teenie boppers in the audience just bouncing so that he would leave the stage and GCH would come out. I'da been pissed! But his music is so damn good!

so here he is

that 'angry' performer

new album

new video

with the music made from cups

FLYYY

alot happier

*Optimistic* even

...but was he ever even angry...?

*peace.love.music*

..not just tonight...but the rest of your life...

Musiq Soulchild - "sobeautiful"

Ahhh, Musiq Soulchild, how I love thee. One of the few artist whose whole discography is in my collection [and never leaves my Poddy Pod]....and one of the very few artists that can bring tears to my eyes as soon as the first sung note leaves their body[weird, i know, but music is like that for me]

So peep the new video for *So Beautiful*. Not my 1st pick for the next single, but I'm not disappointed in the slighest.

*peace.love.music*

Aye yo good morning to um...I don't remember your name

*sheeesh...they callin me...lol

*I'm in the middle of apartment hunting...the countdown begins: 30 days or else we're essentially 'out on the street'

*where did all this damn snow come from???? it was like 60-70 degrees for like 3 days last week! Now I have to brace myself for snow!? This is come redonkulous bullshit!! Can someone lend me some road salt, an ice scraper, and...ummm....oh yea, food??

*The wal-mart in Hampton hasn't changed a bit...still got that shitty ass service...and still selling either rotten or not ripe produce. THANKS WALMART! You know just how to ruin college life!

*I finally got my tots and cranberry limeade from Sonic...I only had to wait for a trip to Hampton to get it. yummmyyy

*What the fuck is a 1GB ipod!? LMAO! What kinda music do you put on that? I hate having an iPod with only 16GB! If someone offered me a 1GB iPod, I'd give them a dollar to take that shit back...

*I had yogurt for the first time the other day...and now I'm slightly addicted...I'm trying to get over the fact that it has the consistency of fruity snot...lol. Sorry, but that's all I thought about when people ate it

*"Burn After Reading" has one of the most shocking storyline twists I've seen in a LONG time...rarely does a movie catch me completely by surprise. And why did people say this movies is hilarious??? ....I don't get it...good, yes...chuckle-worthy, absolutely....hilarious, not in the slightest...but maybe I missed something

*I gotta get into grad school ASAP...but, alas, I gotta write yet another essay. I hate writing [...in a formal sense, not in a off the top of the dome, random ass sense...]

*Countdown to the GREATEST BIRTHDAY EVEERRRRR: 7 days!!!!

If you ain't bussin down....PLEASE DISPERSE

1/ Don't Quit Your Day Job made album of the week...folk slept on that album hard

2/ What the FUCK!? Wayne does tats now???? Suddenly shit all makes sense... *worldstarhiphop.com*

3/ ...I bet he was high as shit when he did it...

4/ ...and tyga had to be too to let him do it...

5/ Why does Unique from For The Love of Ray J think she can sing???

6/ All I hear is a strangling cat with amnesia...

7/ note to self: get these albums
a. p.o.s - never better
b. ryan leslie - self titled
c. india.arie

8/ I wish Cudi would get his site fixed

9/ I miss the Jack of All Trades blog

10/ Happy Mardi Gras!

11/ Last day to be bad....go hard or go home!

12/ I gotta find some holy ash for Ash Wednesday...

13/ ...maybe not...

14/ Countdown to the greatest birthday EVER: 12 days

15/ detox tea + motrin for an achy scalp + personal blogroll + cereal == one great Monday night

*peace.love.music*

The lonely stoner tries to free his mind at night...

...at.at.at night!

CUDI!!!!!!! At long last! An official video for 'Day n Nite'!!! Whoooo!!!! EnJoY!

.....doo.doo.doo.doo.doo.doo.doo.doo.doo.doo.doo.doo.doo.doo.....

*peace.love.music*

well well well

1/ I need to be sleep....I gotta get up in like 3 hours to take Ling to the airport...

2/ I'm not gonna be a friendly person tomorrow...

3/ ...and I apologize in advance for anyone caught in the crossfire

4/ I still don't know what to give up for Lent...

5/ ...any suggestions?

6/ Ling says I need to give him a chance

7/ i'll consider it

8/ It's really hard to text and type an email at the same time

9/ I haven't left the house all day

10/ That's some sad shit

11/ But it is my day off...

12/ 'She's Gotta Have It' is one of the best Spike Lee Joints I've ever seen. Easily #2 behind 'Do the Right Thing' and before 'She Hate Me'

13/ Sometimes I feel like Nola Darling...

14/ ...and sometimes, I aspire to be her...

15/ Manny is NO longer in the picture

16/ that's official

17/ Please stop asking about him

18/ I'm thinking about video blogging...

19/ ...we'll see how that pans out...

*peace.love.music*

As the seconds turn to minutes...

1/ I feel like I'm looking for something that will never be there.

2/ This shit is fucked up...I'm watching Hedsor Hall on MTV...and actually tryna learn something

3/ These bitches are crazy

4/ Madea was a hilarious movie...but oh so predictable...

5/ It funny how a man wants to be all up in your face when you are clearly unavailable emotionally

6/ My uncle gives some of the best advice

7/ 'If a man can't treat you like a queen...show his ass the door' ~ Unki

8/ Looks like a lot of ni**as bout to feel that cold doorknob hittin they ass

9/ It's embarrassing to be standing in line in front if a fine ass dude and you're tryna buy smooth move tea, tampons, and milk...

10/ ...real embarrassing...

11/ 'life is a flow of love; your participation is required' ~yogi tea bag

12/ I am the visual, the inspiration, that made lady sing the blues...

13/ I wish artists would just make their music available on the internet already

14/ ...I'm just sayin...

a drunk/sober night's revelations

1. I couldn't decide on an album for the week...or even an artist *though Murs has been in heavy rotation since tuesday*

2. When I say I'll be ready by a certain time, I mean it.

3. You don't have to buy them drinks and shit to get approval

4. If I offer to buy you something, just say thank you and shut the fuck up

5. Have you not been paying for everything since the day we met?

6. Beer before liquor will get you sicker....

7. ...liquor before beer, you're in the clear

8. How many more times can I say it: NEVER MIX LIGHTS AND DARKS!

9. Why do guys [read:: boys] expect that you're gonna wait around for them to get their shit together?

10. I'm too young to be waiting around...

11. ...and too old to be playing games...

12. 3 dates apparently means we're gonna be together forever

13. What's wrong with enjoying right now?

14 . I thought that i would be the clingy one...

15. ...apparently not...

16. It's looking like I'm a heartbreaker all around...

17. ...and that's gonna make me single the rest of my life...

18. I never meant to be...

19. Being a Piscean Woman is starting to feel like a curse...

20. You said you weren't the jealous type...

21. ...but you sure showed your jealous ass tonight...

22. If they don't give me more work, I'm gonna go OFF on somebody!

23. I came home and you were laying on the couch...lights and TV on...but he wasn't here...WTF?!

24. I don't have time for spoiled nonsense

25. I'm craving new music like crazy

26. I can't wait til spring...

all that I can sayyyy.....

....is sooooooo much....

*ugh* I hate having so much to say but no way of telling it.

I'm trying to gather my thoughts and update all of you....I should be back in full effect by Friday. If not, feel free to blast me in your own personal ways....

*but not too hard cause my undying laziness makes you all love me so >>insert giggle here<<*

...but in the meantime follow me on *twitter*

I LOVE YALL!!!

peace*love*music

New Layout...

..hope you like it...

...if you don't...

...I'll change it...

....for $150....

peace*love*music

N*$%@s is testin' my patience...

...I'm feeling quite inspired, yet, I feel this entry will go unfinished....

my friend went 'missing' today...scary, to say the least...everyone was calling, texting...I was this *brings thumb and index finger really close* close to hiking up thru the fucking mountains to bust this girl's door down. she's fine. thank GOD

does anyone like to be in 2nd place?? I KNOW I don't like to be in 2nd place....so why does he think I do? It's really bothering me. Are you that fucking oblivious that you don't see it? How can he think things are the same way as they were before? MIA for days/weeks at a time...coming back and making up some bullshit excuses...it was okay at first. It was early...we weren't that serious...but...umm...it's been like 4 months...I think I deserve a lil more than some part-time thing...I'm not taking 2nd place to anything anymore...

I was running down my blog list today after work *my religious activity* and I'm noticing that most of my favorite blogs are being shut down. *cue one lone tear* it makes me so sad...I mean, blogs I check as many times a day as I can gone like that...poof. So I've been on the prowl...looking for new blogs to cyber stalk for the latest in music and the funniest of daily observations...

...gotta go...time for Noah's Arc...

peace*love*music

a sober night's lesson

//never AND I MEAN NEVER mix dark and light liquors...we've all seen the tragedy that comes of it...

\\if you're a lightweight, do not listen to drunk alcoholics when they tell you the opposite of the afore mentioned lesson...even more tragedy comes of it

\\if you are drunk off your ass, never attempt a spin while dancing. You WILL go down, down, down if noone is there to catch you...thus causing many expensive drinks to be wasted.

\\always know where you're going and how to get there BEFORE leaving. Never follow a maniac driver who's been drinking

\\apparently that's not his boo...and he's tired of everyone referring to her as such.

\\...but the pics, convo, and aftermath DO paint a different picture...

\\...i'm just saying...

\\buying a drink AIN'T worth it if you only drink half, it provides some killer heartburn, and delivers no buzz.

\\when choosing between herpes and unwanted pregnancy, ALWAYS bet on the unwanted pregnancy.

\\when you're tipping, slipping, and sliding...believe your friends when they tell you 'you're drunk'.

\\if you're the only sober person in you're party, don't turn your back on anyone else for longer than 15mins...chaos ensues.

\\never EVER drink and dial...ever.

\\you should give him a chance. Doesn't matter what he does for a living...unless you tryna have his babies.

\\never holla at men around your friends...

\\...especially if they drunk...they know how to cause a scene

\\yes i held his hand...innocently

\\and, yes, he kissed me...ON THE CHEEK

\\don't keep saying/thinking you got it....when you obviously don't.

\\never bring your mother to the club

\\and don't let her dance with your man...gross.

\\ihop is SERIOUSLY slacking on their cheese grits game...2 weeks straight is completely ridiculous

\\it's very rude to leave a throwup bag sitting on a table for some else to clean up.

\\BEST LESSON: being sober makes for a much more interesting night

.....i would never trade my friends for the world....not even when they drunk....

peace*love*music

then the clouds opened up and Obama said...

...so...as it seems, my blog hits have gone up significantly. I guess that everyone is waiting on this life altering testimony from my Inauguration weekend....

...ummm....sorry folks...yall not getting any of that. Now, now, I must say...I would have never wanted to be anywhere else than standing on that mall when Barack raised that right hand, took that oath, and gave one of the most moving speeches I've heard in a long time. But that was just the last hour we were out there....

That was the COLDEST LONGEST 10 hours of my life!! Everytime I think about that I wish I would have never gone out there. I'm still recovering from this cold! But it does allow for bragging rights...if only for a few minutes....

So anyway...

We got to DC around 4:30am. Everyone was kinda walking in different directions. We ended up seeing a line going down Independence Ave. **like WAAAY down** So natually, we cut in the front of the line...along with about 100 other people. Folks in the back didn't like that **HA** then, as folks in the back were starting to scream at us, people started rushing to the right...apparently someone busted open the fence that lead directly to the mall. Everyone started running for the front of the no ticket area. **so against the rules...but oh well** We all started running **then I stopped, I don't know who the fuck these slim ass mofos think I am, but a runner I am not** Once we made it to the front **and I met Lyn and EJ where they stopped** everyone just kinda stood there and stared at the brightly lit captial building....and stood there...and kept standing there. After a while I felt like a dumbass...we looked like a herd of cattle...just standing there staring straight ahead like cause we got out there before the sun came up GOD was going to come up from behind the Capitol Building and bless us. So I decided to sit down...oh folk didn't like that! They started wondering why we were sitting down in the middle of the crowd **ummm...in case you didn't notice we'll be out here for another 8 hours before Barack even shows his face...get comfortable** but we sat anyway. People kept standing....then gradually as hours started to pass and the temperature started to drop...people got smart and started to sit the fuck down. As the sun came up, EJ started shivering and, after downing 2 cans of Full Throttle, had to piss like nobody's business. Mind you, we're standing in the middle of a massive crowd of people and the portapotties were so far away. So, in an act of desperation, EJ pissed in many bottles...in front of me...I feel so violated...even today. Around 9, we just couldn't take it anymore. I was starting to numb from being so damn cold, EJ was still shivering, and Lyn was starting to realize that wind chill is a big factor in how cold it was going to be that day. We walked to the outside of the crowd **fuck it, I admit, we were bout to just leave** Surprisingly, the edge of the crowd was alot warmer than the middle...so we stayed. Warmed up a lil...aLOT closer to the portapotties **though they were DISGUSTING** It still seemed worth it. Then the wind started to pick up again and I froze. Lyn started acting irrational **somewhat from the weather...mostly from her crazy ass...lol** so she layed down under a blanket and fell asleep....she looked like a hobo **no, really. people started to wonder if she was okay...** Finally they started ushering all the flyy as fuck folk that didn't have to wait in the cold **celebrities...politicians...and the like** and folk started to get excited **I admit, I was too...especially when they showed Jay-Z in the huge fur hat** and then the moment arrived. Joe Biden took his oath **almost there** then my president got up and took his oath...I could barely see it, but hearing it was just as good. It made standing out there for hours, so cold I was numb, and catching a bad cold SOOOO worth it. It's so real.

Things on TV aren't always what they seem. This whole election, election night, announcing the winner...none of that seemed completely real. But to stand out there and to actually see him taking the oath and giving that speech turned my fantasy into reality. About 18 months ago, you would have never conviced me that a Black man was going win the presidency...like forreal...I would have told you to shut the fuck up...but now, I really believe it.

*I'm renaming my cold 'Barack flu'*

::ps:: pics of my day can be found here

**peace.love.music**

Geauxbama for ya mama

I did it...
I made it thru Inauguration...

I would sit here right now and give yall a complete rundown of everything I did...

But I've got a cold from all this shit.....and it's not too pleasant to be in this body right now....

I'll get back to yall soon

peace*love*music

all of this ain't gonna matter when I die and say goodbye...SO LONG!!

B.o.B - "I'll Be In The Sky"

B.o.B caught me by surprise...forreal...I was not feeling him when I first heard him. But the more he kept appearing on mixtapes along with some of my favorite artists, the more he grew on me. Then I heard this single.

I.LOVE.IT

My friend captured exactly what I was thinking about B.o.B today when he said, "he reminds me of andre3000 but not to the point where he's trying to be andre." Wow...couldn't have said it better myself.

Just peep the video, check his myspace, then download his free mixtape:

http://sharebee.com/8e5233ce

peace*love*music

But I will find him standing on my doorstep...

Adele's album is great...and I'm a year late, but whatever. I hear myself in my album this now...cept I didn't have to become an underage alcoholic in order to gain inspiration *no offense girl*

...i'm trying to get on a new flex schedule so can get every Friday off. I'ma be a zombie mofo most of the week...but I can just lay on the floor and stare out the window if i so please come Friday. I'm starting to learning to take full advantage of the benefits my job is claiming to offer. Maybe i'll go back and get a degree I don't really need and take the whole month of March off. That's what they pay me to come in for every day for...

i'm right HERE...

....and I ain't going nowhere...

I know I know...it's been awhile. I never realize just how many people read my blog, my bad. I really appreciate yall though::

**billy harris**

**colie**

**shu shu**

**etc**

**etc**

**etc**

yall know you yall are

Anywhoo...

so it's a new year...time to turn over a new leaf *I'm bout to be brand new in the 09! LOL* For me, it's time I go get what's mine. I'm being selfish from now on. Not selfish in the sense, 'fuck you, pay me', but like 'yo, I *heart* you, but I gotta take care of me first'

is it just me, or did the holidays empty my bank account...but there's nothing to show for it? This recession shit is really starting to get to me. But what really makes me sick is the fact that people act like cause Obama is being sworn into office in 2 weeks, all the money issue of the world will disappear. Like they mailing bailout checks to every American the day of Inauguration....ummm....I don't think so...I'ma be broke that day...the day after...the day after that...the month after that....etc. But if they do send a check, I sure won't turn nothing down by my collar...

**billy harris and ling are GAY**

*peace.love.music*