Back in the day when I was young I'm not a kid anymore..but some days I sit and wish I was a kid again

▪ right now, i'm the fish swimming upstram...

▪ do I act childish?
My boyfriend says I do...like, I don't like to talk about things and I when I do I like to argue them to the death. I like to talk about things, but I don't like to discuss and argue about little petty shit...sorry...

▪ it is taking me so long to finish this damn post....I've been working on it since saturday....smh

▪ speaking of saturday, I almost died on saturday...my friend is no longer allowed to drive in the rain or after 12 while i'm in the car...i'll drive or stay whereever we may be going. His ass was driving like he was the only one in the car and he had a death wish...umm...I value my life, thanks...

▪ on a lighter note, saturday was a fun night. Eastern state penetentiary was an amazing structure smack dab in the middle of a developed neighborhood. And inside those walls....whew...inside those walls was the most creepy sight. If they stripped out all the props and actors and stuff, that place could sell out all by itself. I was terrified just at the penetentiary...add in actors, props, darkness, rain, cold, and a drunk black kid that said we were standing in line to get in the club...it made for a very funny night.

▪ new years is looking like a repeat of last year...but it will be even more fun and I will have a lot more money...

▪ ...as long as it's with my alcoholic partner in crime, i'm cool with it...

▪ whoohoo!!! I get to see the foreign exchange this weekend up close & in person!!

▪ this is my first howard homecoming that I haven't been all up & thru the events...i'm just not as excited...plus, all my friends are gonna be outta town so it won't be AS fun....I think I have officially grown up...

▪ Trey Songz' *Anticipation* mixtape is actually better than his *Ready* album...sad

▪ I hope you're happy now, shu...theres more to come asap...




peace*love*music

~> Happy birthday neezy!!

~> Couldn't have had a better weekend....I guess I can say I'm really over what all transpired...

~> Panky needs an oil change real bad

~> Cudi's album is still great

~> Apologies are worthless unless they are truly genuine...so stop apologizing...

~> The BF met the mom this weekend. I'm proud of her for not giving a complete 3rd degree...though E certainly did the job for her. I needed that though. It's good to hear that people care about me enough to make sure they ask all the things that I need to know but was too caught up to ask...

...is it *the real thing*?? idk, but so far so good.

~> Crazy *stalker* bitches seem to be good at what they do. I didn't know that at the age of 23, we can still manage to act like we just started high school. Shit, I really thought we had managed to move past that...we have degrees...we are grown up and have grown up problems and jobs and shit...but apparently we haven't. IDK...I have better things to worry about than to be caught up in some petty drama...

~> Females are irrational....myself included...

~> I seem to be a very daring person...

~> I need a bike...again...

~> ...and a new fucking computer...bad...

~> MAXWELL CONCERT FRIDAY!!!

~> 3am scarfing down cold cheeseburgers: some what *for the win*, mostly *fail*. He never eats the whole burger...this is something we know for a fact...but last night, neezy fucked that burger up!! straight out of the fridge...that was a kodak moment!!

~> Shu finally admitted to herself that she is not superwoman and stayed on the couch last night...thank goodness...we all know that manASSASS is like a billion light years away from Alexandria...and she had WAY too much to drink to make it home! I don't live close to the city for nothing!

~> OMG october starts next week...where has the year gone?

~> Let your haters be your motivators.... listen to *Motivation* by Jay-Z

~> *Surrogates* was a pretty good movie...but it was kinda like I-Robot with out the Will Smith shower scene...



...another week...more stress...


...I'm living for the weekend...


*peace*love*music*

Why must is feel so wrong when I try to do right??

-->> Cudi is the fucking greatest...I just LOVESSS me some him!!! CudiFanSite

-->> What in the FUCKING HELL is a McGangBang??? I'm so glad I'm a vegetarian...I ain't missing shit: McGangBang

-->> I can't take anymore whole weekends off without exercising...I almost died today in my zumba class today! Maybe I'll take up biking again...which is pretty fucking stupid considering that I just GAVE MY FUCKING BIKE AWAY TO THE GOODWILL! *sigh* I guess I'll just have to suck it up and buy another one....

-->> I wonder if they have a early afternoon yoga class on fridays???

-->> Can anyone recommend a good book on Weblogic??? I just isn't an application that one can pick up by just fiddling around with it...I'm starting to hate Weblogic...

-->> Where the hell is Granite, Utah? Who lives there and why would anyone even WANT to go there??

-->> I'm getting sick and tired of stalkers...

-->> ...especially when they aren't mine...

-->> Puff keeps asking me when I plan to pick up the guitar again...I need to look into some lessons...

-->> I need to paint my nails...


*peace*love*music*

You're in my dreams now...

--» *sigh* I know....I know...

--» another week has begun...

--» lmao the excuses that come out of the dudes on *how to catch a predator* are sooo dumb..."I don't normally do this...I was trying to protect her"....mmhm...protect her by sticking your P in her VaG!!

--» cosmic bowling in a smoky redneck bowling alley was fun. Cheaper and more fun than booking 2 weeks in advance, dressing all up, and paying for overpriced beer...

--» puff is finally on twitter...after cyber stalking twitter pages for the past few months...welcome to my world... :-P

--» I finally started my exercise classes last week....*whew* I am sooooooo out of shape! 4 days a week: boxercise, zumba, and turbokick. I'm hanging in there though...the soreness has finally gone away and I can actually make it thru a whole hour of cardio...I just have to work on strength training... *pray for me*

--» I've missed my bed this weekend....i've had fun though!

--» I finally understand the concept of football...like forreal. More than just pick the pretty colors and cheer while they run up and down the field. I know what is actually happening. YAY ME!!!

--» I still like basketball better though...

--» my boyfriend completely read my personality the other day...my goodness...he was so accurate it was scary. I think he really is a keeper.

--» I watched the Mayweather fight last night...I think he might just be the epitome of a douchebag. I mean, he does back it up, but damn....he could have given himself a bit more of a challenge for his comeback! And I really wanna see him fight Sugar Shane...don't be no bitch, Floyd...

--» i'm so sad summer is ending...time to pack up the dresses and go find sweaters....


*peace*love*music*

...and looking out for one time...and these haters tryna take mine...i'm walking on a thin line...

**a 500 lb man stashing a gun in his flab == talent...
>>i wonder what else he had in there and how long it took him to perfect that craft...

**a drunk woman breast feeding her baby == weird...
>>i wonder if the baby got drunk? how dumb are you for doing that shit...and how much more dumb are yyou for getting caught...

**still basking in the concert weekend afterglow...

**i love blogging...reading as wel as writing

**EJ needs to update his blog...

**...so does my momma...

**how much herbal/green tea is too much tea???

**i don't really care...it tastes sooooo gooood!!!

**DJHERO??? how could i have missed that?!!??

**i keep forgetting Ling is damn near a year younger than us...not that I care, as long as she's over 21

**everything around me keeps reminding me how fucking old i'm getting *mind you, i'm only 23* watching tv>>alot of the artists i'm becoming hip to are no older than 21, with most in the 18-20 range. one of the girls i used to baby sit *i've known her since she was a pudgy 3 year old* is not only on Facebook, but she looks as old as my sister! My god brother *who I forget is even a teen until i stand beside him...he's tall as shit* is driving now...ugh, young people, WTF...

**I just finished reading steve harvey's book...after letting it sit around for like 4-5 months. it was actually a pretty good book. not at all what i expected since most people i know sort of trashed it...i enjoyed it. he gives alot of good advice-->you just have to open yourself and shut your bitterness down to accept it

**i miss hanging out with all my *ray rays and nem*

**TRUE BLOOD is my new addiction...never thought i'd be saying that...

**i need another vacation...

**friday night at the shadowroom....ehh

**>>NOTE TO SELF<< do not drink sugarfree redbull with vodka. it makes absolutely NO SENSE. who the hell tries to be healthy while polluting their system with liquor...a sure sign of old age...

**if you call more than twice and she still doesn't answer the phone...GIVE UP....not only did she miss your call *most likely on purpose* but she probably is NOT gonna call back

**i'm not moving to Texas....PERIOD

**you were definitely drunker than me...i didn't throw up and i'm pretty sure i could drive...

**kickboxing??? all systems seem to go...

**i'm a shit talker...sorry you can't keep up...

**i wanted sushi!!! that hoe was lucky i didn't burn that place to the GROUND...cause it SURE wasn't 11 yet...

**i wonder what will happen this weekend...?

**i really want a tarot card reading...but the place i found charges $60 a session. I think it might be worth it.


....steadily approaching the FUCK YOU phase of my life...


..........cause it's my time homie............



*peace*love*music*

Enjoy the Incubus Experience

** Incubus @ Merriweather Post Pavillion
**this is my first experience at an actual 'white' concert where there was not a hip hop act...
**...just walked in the door...this is an experience I must say...
**tail gating takes on whole new levels at a rock concert...tents, grills, footballs, massive amounts of beer, I even saw a makeshift skeeball game set up...wow...
**in what world would you not EXPECT to be carded for trying to walk in a concer carrying an open beer container??? It's already illegal to have an open container in public in the state of Maryland, so why not carr your id just in case??? And then to get mad because they didn't let you in??? That was just dumb...
**i'm sitting in almost the exact same spot I was sitting in last night....
**I don't understand the whole 'we'll buy extra tickets' thing outside the gates...if we had extra tickets, wouldn't we have sold them already...if not to get rid of them, but to make our own profit...just a thought. And are you supposed to be selling tickets outside the gate???


Been here 10 minutes...current count of black people not working booths or selling/buying tix: 22, including myself....

...well that's better than the 3 I saw when I got here....



*peace*love*music*

At the Summer Spirit Festival...

** disposable camera......FAIL
** I never understood why people got all dressed up and sweat out they perms, jack up they heels, and fall apart completely...
**...I go for the music...that's all I know...
**I was not introduced to the friend tonight....can't take it that bad...
**late night conversations reveal the best in people....
**....and the worst....
**Raphael Saddiq is SOOOOO cute!!!
**So is Phonte...
**why am I the only one who knows who foreign exchange is? It was like me and about 10 other people in a crowd of hundreds who knew the act performing...but the were great...I wish I saw them at the Black Cat back in march...


...to be continued....



*peace*love*music*

Sometimes....I may seem a lil distant...

-- tea is better than coffee...I'm AWAKE!!! LOL

-- Jeremih's album is like a baby version of a Dream album...

-- ...with MUCH better singing...

-- I just realized...I'm quite a secretive person...

-- ...it tends to be a gift and a curse...

-- a guy who is concerned about you even when he can't see you often, is a guy you keep around!

-- the wine festival couldn't have been any better this year! Even though it was packed like shit and it took us forever to get there, I'm glad I got to go and bring my closest friends! **pics on FB**

-- kickboxing???? HMM...maybe...

-- I need to bounce him out of my life...I know I know...obviously we can't be friends...

-- I have the ability to bring the *5 year old girl* out in a man...that's definitely a curse I'm going to break....

-- ...excuses are like assholes...

-- 'In the future...everyone will be famous for 15 minutes' *andy warhol*

-- maybe I should take the field position...

-- think positive....and positive will be returned...

-- think negative....and negative will be returned...



*peace*love*music*

I need a SWEET ESCAPE....

-- sometimes....I want to write nasty blogs....

-- I did my poor *Panky* so wrong...and now i'm paying the cost for it...to the tune of a few hundred bucks...

-- driving thru ditches on 395 == BAD IDEA

-- you can't have your cake and eat it too...please remember that...

-- now that my ability to chew has returned and i'm dealing with all this bullshit, I deserve sushi...

-- ...a lot of sushi...

-- once it's done, you won't have to worry about it again for a long time..

Today's color to fill in life's spaces: grey....

** I actually miss Michael Jackson now...

** Off The Wall == best MJ album

** I'm open to opposers...

** Thank goodness for TVOne marathons...late night television is so much better...

** I'm mad everyone is shit talking...it's cool, it only fuels my likelihood of doing the complete opposite...

** ...and we're not even gonna get started on all the cows you know...

** ...I'm just sayin...

** ...don't be mad if you look up and I'm gone....

** I swear, if Clovis sticks his tongue in my ear again, I'll chop his lil limp manhood off! Don't you ever think that it will ever be the way it ever was...

** ....but your friend was fine as hell though!! Do me a favor?? Pass him my number. After you do that, delete it out your phone...

** Stop making bets on my womb!

** I got mad cooking to do when I wake up...

** I was so craving sushi at 1:30 this morning!

** When am I not craving sushi???

** I can't wait til sunday...




*peace*love*music*

Ha.....I accept your challenge. You don't even know what the challenge is, but I accept it nonetheless....

Found it...

*The end of my post from earlier*

**I don't know what's been going on lately but something is in the air that is causing death. Like forreal. The metro crash claims 9, farrah fawcet succumbs to cancer, and Michael Jackson just suddenly dies of cardiac arrest?? Now, Ed McMahon died this week too...but he was maad old and that one wasn't such a surprise. But honestly. It's like we tapped out for a week for vacation and the whold world falls apart! What the fuck...

...I don't think the world is going to recover from this period of mourning...

**I need some catch up....

...back to the real world...

...peep vacation pics up on Facebook in the next few days...


*peace*love*music*

SHITTTT

My fucking phone cut off half my email and only half of my last post was posted....

oh well...

night

*peace*love*music*

And as it began, so shall it end...

**i'm sad....i'm sitting in the airport getting ready to leave florida...

It just wasn't long enough...I wish I could be laying on the beach a few more days...just a few.

** I went jet skiing and parasailing yesterday. It was fun. A bit overpriced, but oh well. They should put a warning sign on the jet ski stand that says you must do stretches before going out. That ride was s fucking intense! I was sore all day yesterday. And today I woke up feeling like I had been stuffed thru a grinder. I can barely move!

Parasailing...was...an experience, to say the the least. I can't say its something I am willing to do again. They took us on a ride thru a channel out to the sea. In this channel are some of the grandest houses i've ever seen. Like, these house easily go for $10million or more. They shoed us this little house that was for sale:$4million. I'm be like that one day...big ass house on the water worth a huge amount of money. Once we got out to sea, it started getting windy and they were hesitating to put us up in the air...but they did it anyway. We got up there with parashute #1 and they said it wasn't sitting right. Mind you, we were about 300-400 feet up in the air. Not cool. Then they said they were going to take us back to dock cause it was too windy, and they instead broke out another parachute and put just me up in the air. I was all cool with it at first, then it was shaking and did a lil dip...over ocean...deep ocean...I wasn't feeling it after that. When they finally pulled me back in. They told me I needed to go back out because my friend was too light to go by hisself...hmmm....whatever. Well needless to say, I was motion sick and I too thru with parasailing after that ride

I knew it...

**i'm heading back to Ft. Lauderdale from Key West....mission accomplished

We had plans to go on an all day water tour *kayak, parasailing, water skiing, and snorkeling* but the key west weather decided it didn't want us to do that. So we had breakfast at some really nice local restaurant *I had a seafood omlette...delicious* and now we're headed back.

**i'm having a GREAT time!! I've gotten almost everything I wanted do in *with exception of the booze cruise and winning money at the casino*

**side note** when I mention that i'm on vacation, I'm usually not concerning myself with spending all my time on the phone getting to know someone new. If I tell you I will hit you up when I return, I mean it. You don't need to hit me up days before I return and proceed to reprimand me on not contacting you. Not only is it making a *BAAADD* first impression, but its a sure sign of future insecuities. Never come at me like that and expect me to want to get to know you better. I answer to NOONE *cept God* and I do whatever the fuck I want. Can't handle it? KICK ROCKS **that is all...management**

**if you're over the age of 20 and you still whine, pout, and complain like a childish bitch, you are in serious need of some therapy. Life is too short to spend it complaining and whining. Gotta live life before it lives you!

**billy's birthday is tomorrow...and I might just be more excited than he is...he might even be mad that i'm mentioning it here...sorry. Everyone's birthday gets posted here.

**TT and EJ look at me crazy cause I am deathly afraid of needles...lmao! I'll add them to the list of people! I don't know what it is, when it comes to doctor's needles...I panic. I can handle tattoos *you don't see the actual needle* and piercings *some I saw the needles, others I already was prepared to take it*, but not doctors' needles...I chalk it up to bad childhood experiences...

...I wanna get another tat...

**I should have packed some tea. Do they not drink any in Florida?? I swear, i've yet to see a tea bag down here and i'm craving pomegranate white tea and yogi detox tea really bad!

**I'm out...until my next destination...

*peace*love*music*

I'm in Miami Bitch

Yes folks, it's been awhile and yes, this postis coming live from the sands of South Beach Miami.

OMG its hot as hell down here...I haven't been checking the weather report...but i'm sure the temperature is at least 90--all day.everyday. I'm used to getting in the car and not having to put on the air--just put the windows down and just drive and catch a nice cool breeze...NOPE not down here...A/C is a must!

I've managed to do everything I wasn't supposed to do so far and we've only been down here for like 4 days...its like Vegas though: whatever happens here stays here...bur somethings cab be spoken on...in due time...

..but for now I'm trying to talk about swimming in some of the clearest, most beautiful seawater i've ever seen in my life. I must have been a fish in a past life I swear it!

*peace*love*music**and all the beaches of South Florida*

Note to self *deux*

**either read blog posts carefully, or hit the 'save' button until you can**

**get cable before the NBA finals**

**drunk blogging may have reached an all new low....it's worse than drunk texting**

**get a ticket to see cudi in Norfolk ASAP**

Time waits for nothing...

-- whew....i'm so tempted...

-- sleeping to the tunes of my PoddyPod is sooo nice...

-- my night was so nice...except I think I drank too much...I was tempted to fight a taste...just a taste...

-- I found my sober party counterpart!! She's cool as shit..and she can dress!

-- Musiq 'halfcrazy': 1. It's currently spinning on the PoddyPod 2. It makes me think of all the 'maybe' points in my life. Not like in a 'we just didn't work out' sense....like a 'we can't be together' sense...

-- I got a pretty good mix going right now...

-- I miss my bestest buddie....it makes me sad she's in Fairfax...I can't wait until that's not an option...

-- ....I worry about her like she's a lil sister...

-- My braces hurt like shit...

-- Yes, mofos, I got braces. Please, don't look at me crazy...its just a lil metal in my mouth...

-- I'm so happy we hired movers...they did a bomb ass job getting all the heavy stuff from fairfax to alexandria...

-- I wish Ling wasn't scarie....it makes me really sad....

-- the PoddyPod is blasting Mariah Carey 'The Roof' now...classic...

-- V is sleeping in the dining room...i'm alll about the drunken safety of my buddies! Matter fact, where is Shu and her 'just in case' bag???

-- I've been invited to church my a drunk person...umm....I can't take a sober invitation seriously...can't see how'd be willing to take a drunken one....

-- have I missed out on something???

-- I miss my bed...one of he only things I hate about moving...

-- I broke out in hives today...can anyone explain a sporatic allergy to shrimp???

-- <--- open minded. Don't hate.




*peace.love.music*

Last night I had a dream...of a beautiful day...

--apparently cause you're balling out of control, that's excuse enough to drop $2000 on VIP every weekend...

--...apparently not all of us realized that was unattainable/stupid right out of college...

--...TRUST, I can do that no problem....but wtf...EVERY week?? What the fuck for? Ain't nobody impressed...but maybe you...and if it was pulling you that much pussy/dick, you wouldn't have been in 18th street NW arguing with me and others....

--....ball outta control on that

--I love jumbo slices, but damn if they don't give me heartburn

--I feel so old when I mention heartburn

--Shu Shu drives wayy too fast

--Ugh, I hope i'm mostly packed my tomorrow night

--And I hope to never have to move again for awhile

--you can't play a player...and you can't bullshit a bullshitter...

--'Minority Report' was a good movie

--I wonder how the Drake performance was?

--Tabi Bonney was just walking down the street tonight...I guess he doesn't see himself as much of a celebrity as I do. And that's a good thing.

--I was reading about accepting that there is a higher power and forming your own concept of what GOD is...what is your concept?

--GOD is a woman....bam. That's all I got....




*peace.love.music*

note to self...

*never impart words of wisdom on people that either don't deserve it/don't want it*

*a 9-5 Ling is a cranky Ling...steer clear, or head for danger...*

*when you get an office with a door, either get a fan or a headset. Don't be loud and ignorant...talking as loud as possible on speakerphone, turning it all the way up, and leaving the door open...that's why you get the office...PRIVACY*

*NEVER drink coffee on days you wear light colored pants....*