i am just a blinking, neon roadside attraction...

...or, at least, that's how I feel today...

anger.singeing the hair on my body.Incubus lyrics permeate my thoughts today....so maybe listening to old school Incubus [back when Brandon was "going through things"] wasn't the best choice but, shit, I needed to hear someone who knew exactly how I was feeling...and I wasn't in the mood to pick up my own guitar and learn another song just to sing and cry softly to myself...especially when Brandon already does it on my Touch.

Brandon screams.

I scream.

Brandon says "fuck you".

I say "fuck you".

**2 middle fingers attached**

Incubus made me feel a hell of alot better today. As the rain fell and flooded my balcony, I started to think about everything that had happened to this point. I felt as if I was >>insert blog title here<<. I felt like I have started to change so much, like in the past month or 2 expecially. But I've changed in order to grow...in order to receive more out of life...in order to see change in others...be happier....HA! ...what a fucking waste...

I AM SO FUCKING SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF GIVING OF MYSELF AND CHANGING TO BECOME A BETTER PERSON JUST TO BE TORN DOWN LATER

*~*and LO, he did shat on my whole life last night...and for that somone will weep...*~*

confusion.tearing me apart.sang Incubus **I Miss You** all the way to the spot.anticipation.been a while.

wait a min...

what the FUCK???

is he???

he IS???

no this fucking nigga didn't....

***PLAYED stamped all over my face**

::but then::

sweet.smiley.good to see you.are you doing okay.

let me...

oh really...

well why don't you...

okay baby...

Incubus **Just a Phase** lyrics are scanning across my brain's jumbotron now...."I am bottled, fizzy water and you are shaking me up..." over and over and over. Cause I always think everything is okay..but then you do [or don't do] something and it "shakes me up". I don't like confusion...and I DON'T LIKE LIARS!!! ...that is if you are lying...and today...baby...boo...nigga...I think you are....

>>also confused on some other shit that can't be confirmed til the middle of next week....

Incubus allowed me to face my feelings head on....

Ling Ling *and a lil ~laugh, laugh, funny, funny~ from the idiot box* helped to bring me back from the edge...I love her forever and when all fades away in this world *or when the world ends in 2012*, she will still be standing there with me *mainly because we decided to pop some X and ride out the end of the world, but also because she's my bestest* and we will be making each other laugh so we won't have to feel the hurt anymore...

**I am one big walking chemical reaction**

....and not one of the good ones...

...someone needs to come and put out theses neon lights...

rain, rain, go away...

Okay, so first of all, let me start by saying that TS Hanna is a fucking BITCH that is ruining my saturday!!! I woke up this morning and I had to check the clock to make sure I hadn't slept until the next night...no, it was just Hanna...casting dark and dank across my bedroom...shitty bitch...

Anyway [cause I'm trying to see the day as a glass half full], today will be a day of reflection, cleansing, and renewal....at least, that's what I'm hoping for.

If Zo! and Tigallo Love the 80s, I Do Too!

The Greatest Depiction of the 80s I've seen in a while

Today, lovely peeps, I present to you Zo! and Tigallo. This dynamic duo:

• Zo! :: a producer/musician from Silver Spring, MD

• and Tigallo :: our favorite rapper, Phonte, from Little Brother

Their album, *Zo! & Tigallo Love the 80s*, is a modern update to some 80s hits. As crazy as they look on the cover [and they do look funny as all hell], you would think that the album is going to be straight shit....tricky lil artist they are!! This album has played at least 5 times everyday on the Touch! They took songs I've listened to as a kid and almost made me forget what the original sounded like. And they weren't your old school soul and r&b songs [your rick james', your stevies, your chakas...], they were all the 2520 songs [with the exception of The Rude Boys]!!! Okay so I'ma run through all the tracks on the album and give the original videos by the original artists:

**1** AFRICA :: originally by ToTo

THIS IS MY FAVORITEST SONG ON THE ALBUM RIGHT NOW!! ToTo, an American rock band, originally released this song in 1982 on their *Toto IV* album.

**2** TAKE ON ME :: originally by A-ha

A-ha, a new wave synthrock band from Norway, originally released this song on their album *Hunting High and Low* in 1986. I love this video cause it's a cool mix of drawing and real life.

**3** STEPPIN' OUT 2008 :: originally by Joe Jackson

Joe Jackson [not "no, daddy, no" Joe], and English pop artist, released this song on his *Night and Day* album back in 1982. I always heard this song and I recognized it immediately when I heard it on the album, but when I looked up who the song artist was, I was caught a bit off guard. I actually thought it was "no, daddy, no" Joe! I was about to be like, "Lemme find out Joe was an artist in his spare time!"

**4** SOMETHING ABOUT YOU :: Level 42

Level 42, English new wave band, originally released this song on their 1985 album, *World Machine*. The guy who sings the hook is a bit scary, especially when he pops out in that loud ass suit!

**5** I'M ONLY HUMAN :: originally by Human League

Human League, English synthpop band, released this on their *Crash* album back in 1986. The words to this song are exactly how I feel around 2pm everyday...lol

POP QUIZ: Guess which one is the man???

**6** WRITTEN ALL OVER YOUR FACE :: originally by The Rude Boys

Okay, so this single dropped in 1990....but so what! Close enough to the 80s. The Rude Boys are a Cleveland R&B band that was discovered by Gerald Levert, who happens to make an appearance in the video. They are the only black group to be covered on this album. If you're Black, and you don't know this song, YOU'RE an official loser!! I'll let yall slide on all the other songs, but this one get's no excuse!!

AND UMM.....Why is Gerald wearing a TOPHAT??? ...T-Pain before his time....