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N*$%@s is testin' my patience...

...I'm feeling quite inspired, yet, I feel this entry will go unfinished....

my friend went 'missing' today...scary, to say the least...everyone was calling, texting...I was this *brings thumb and index finger really close* close to hiking up thru the fucking mountains to bust this girl's door down. she's fine. thank GOD

does anyone like to be in 2nd place?? I KNOW I don't like to be in 2nd place....so why does he think I do? It's really bothering me. Are you that fucking oblivious that you don't see it? How can he think things are the same way as they were before? MIA for days/weeks at a time...coming back and making up some bullshit excuses...it was okay at first. It was early...we weren't that serious...but...umm...it's been like 4 months...I think I deserve a lil more than some part-time thing...I'm not taking 2nd place to anything anymore...

I was running down my blog list today after work *my religious activity* and I'm noticing that most of my favorite blogs are being shut down. *cue one lone tear* it makes me so sad...I mean, blogs I check as many times a day as I can gone like that...poof. So I've been on the prowl...looking for new blogs to cyber stalk for the latest in music and the funniest of daily observations...

...gotta go...time for Noah's Arc...

peace*love*music

a sober night's lesson

//never AND I MEAN NEVER mix dark and light liquors...we've all seen the tragedy that comes of it...

\\if you're a lightweight, do not listen to drunk alcoholics when they tell you the opposite of the afore mentioned lesson...even more tragedy comes of it

\\if you are drunk off your ass, never attempt a spin while dancing. You WILL go down, down, down if noone is there to catch you...thus causing many expensive drinks to be wasted.

\\always know where you're going and how to get there BEFORE leaving. Never follow a maniac driver who's been drinking

\\apparently that's not his boo...and he's tired of everyone referring to her as such.

\\...but the pics, convo, and aftermath DO paint a different picture...

\\...i'm just saying...

\\buying a drink AIN'T worth it if you only drink half, it provides some killer heartburn, and delivers no buzz.

\\when choosing between herpes and unwanted pregnancy, ALWAYS bet on the unwanted pregnancy.

\\when you're tipping, slipping, and sliding...believe your friends when they tell you 'you're drunk'.

\\if you're the only sober person in you're party, don't turn your back on anyone else for longer than 15mins...chaos ensues.

\\never EVER drink and dial...ever.

\\you should give him a chance. Doesn't matter what he does for a living...unless you tryna have his babies.

\\never holla at men around your friends...

\\...especially if they drunk...they know how to cause a scene

\\yes i held his hand...innocently

\\and, yes, he kissed me...ON THE CHEEK

\\don't keep saying/thinking you got it....when you obviously don't.

\\never bring your mother to the club

\\and don't let her dance with your man...gross.

\\ihop is SERIOUSLY slacking on their cheese grits game...2 weeks straight is completely ridiculous

\\it's very rude to leave a throwup bag sitting on a table for some else to clean up.

\\BEST LESSON: being sober makes for a much more interesting night

.....i would never trade my friends for the world....not even when they drunk....

peace*love*music

then the clouds opened up and Obama said...

...so...as it seems, my blog hits have gone up significantly. I guess that everyone is waiting on this life altering testimony from my Inauguration weekend....

...ummm....sorry folks...yall not getting any of that. Now, now, I must say...I would have never wanted to be anywhere else than standing on that mall when Barack raised that right hand, took that oath, and gave one of the most moving speeches I've heard in a long time. But that was just the last hour we were out there....

That was the COLDEST LONGEST 10 hours of my life!! Everytime I think about that I wish I would have never gone out there. I'm still recovering from this cold! But it does allow for bragging rights...if only for a few minutes....

So anyway...

We got to DC around 4:30am. Everyone was kinda walking in different directions. We ended up seeing a line going down Independence Ave. **like WAAAY down** So natually, we cut in the front of the line...along with about 100 other people. Folks in the back didn't like that **HA** then, as folks in the back were starting to scream at us, people started rushing to the right...apparently someone busted open the fence that lead directly to the mall. Everyone started running for the front of the no ticket area. **so against the rules...but oh well** We all started running **then I stopped, I don't know who the fuck these slim ass mofos think I am, but a runner I am not** Once we made it to the front **and I met Lyn and EJ where they stopped** everyone just kinda stood there and stared at the brightly lit captial building....and stood there...and kept standing there. After a while I felt like a dumbass...we looked like a herd of cattle...just standing there staring straight ahead like cause we got out there before the sun came up GOD was going to come up from behind the Capitol Building and bless us. So I decided to sit down...oh folk didn't like that! They started wondering why we were sitting down in the middle of the crowd **ummm...in case you didn't notice we'll be out here for another 8 hours before Barack even shows his face...get comfortable** but we sat anyway. People kept standing....then gradually as hours started to pass and the temperature started to drop...people got smart and started to sit the fuck down. As the sun came up, EJ started shivering and, after downing 2 cans of Full Throttle, had to piss like nobody's business. Mind you, we're standing in the middle of a massive crowd of people and the portapotties were so far away. So, in an act of desperation, EJ pissed in many bottles...in front of me...I feel so violated...even today. Around 9, we just couldn't take it anymore. I was starting to numb from being so damn cold, EJ was still shivering, and Lyn was starting to realize that wind chill is a big factor in how cold it was going to be that day. We walked to the outside of the crowd **fuck it, I admit, we were bout to just leave** Surprisingly, the edge of the crowd was alot warmer than the middle...so we stayed. Warmed up a lil...aLOT closer to the portapotties **though they were DISGUSTING** It still seemed worth it. Then the wind started to pick up again and I froze. Lyn started acting irrational **somewhat from the weather...mostly from her crazy ass...lol** so she layed down under a blanket and fell asleep....she looked like a hobo **no, really. people started to wonder if she was okay...** Finally they started ushering all the flyy as fuck folk that didn't have to wait in the cold **celebrities...politicians...and the like** and folk started to get excited **I admit, I was too...especially when they showed Jay-Z in the huge fur hat** and then the moment arrived. Joe Biden took his oath **almost there** then my president got up and took his oath...I could barely see it, but hearing it was just as good. It made standing out there for hours, so cold I was numb, and catching a bad cold SOOOO worth it. It's so real.

Things on TV aren't always what they seem. This whole election, election night, announcing the winner...none of that seemed completely real. But to stand out there and to actually see him taking the oath and giving that speech turned my fantasy into reality. About 18 months ago, you would have never conviced me that a Black man was going win the presidency...like forreal...I would have told you to shut the fuck up...but now, I really believe it.

*I'm renaming my cold 'Barack flu'*

::ps:: pics of my day can be found here

**peace.love.music**

Geauxbama for ya mama

I did it...
I made it thru Inauguration...

I would sit here right now and give yall a complete rundown of everything I did...

But I've got a cold from all this shit.....and it's not too pleasant to be in this body right now....

I'll get back to yall soon

peace*love*music

all of this ain't gonna matter when I die and say goodbye...SO LONG!!

B.o.B - "I'll Be In The Sky"

B.o.B caught me by surprise...forreal...I was not feeling him when I first heard him. But the more he kept appearing on mixtapes along with some of my favorite artists, the more he grew on me. Then I heard this single.

I.LOVE.IT

My friend captured exactly what I was thinking about B.o.B today when he said, "he reminds me of andre3000 but not to the point where he's trying to be andre." Wow...couldn't have said it better myself.

Just peep the video, check his myspace, then download his free mixtape:

http://sharebee.com/8e5233ce

peace*love*music

But I will find him standing on my doorstep...

Adele's album is great...and I'm a year late, but whatever. I hear myself in my album this now...cept I didn't have to become an underage alcoholic in order to gain inspiration *no offense girl*

...i'm trying to get on a new flex schedule so can get every Friday off. I'ma be a zombie mofo most of the week...but I can just lay on the floor and stare out the window if i so please come Friday. I'm starting to learning to take full advantage of the benefits my job is claiming to offer. Maybe i'll go back and get a degree I don't really need and take the whole month of March off. That's what they pay me to come in for every day for...

i'm right HERE...

....and I ain't going nowhere...

I know I know...it's been awhile. I never realize just how many people read my blog, my bad. I really appreciate yall though::

**billy harris**

**colie**

**shu shu**

**etc**

**etc**

**etc**

yall know you yall are

Anywhoo...

so it's a new year...time to turn over a new leaf *I'm bout to be brand new in the 09! LOL* For me, it's time I go get what's mine. I'm being selfish from now on. Not selfish in the sense, 'fuck you, pay me', but like 'yo, I *heart* you, but I gotta take care of me first'

is it just me, or did the holidays empty my bank account...but there's nothing to show for it? This recession shit is really starting to get to me. But what really makes me sick is the fact that people act like cause Obama is being sworn into office in 2 weeks, all the money issue of the world will disappear. Like they mailing bailout checks to every American the day of Inauguration....ummm....I don't think so...I'ma be broke that day...the day after...the day after that...the month after that....etc. But if they do send a check, I sure won't turn nothing down by my collar...

**billy harris and ling are GAY**

*peace.love.music*

What the fuck....

...coffee at 7am was a bad idea...even if it was full of sugar and french vanilla flavoring...now i'm sitting here all jittery waiting for my code to finish running and fighting the urge to google...**but damn if it wasn't good going down**

I need to stop treating Thursdays like they are the last day of the week on weeks when they sure aren't. I mean, i managed to drag my ass out of bed early this morning **a SERIOUS feat for me** and if it weren't for traffic, I woulda been here before 8. But I had no urge to get dressed up **jeans and a sweater...and I thank ya** and I'm blasting my music and staring off into space thinking about the weekend...a day and a half away technically...damn reality bites...

Most of the people in this office will be starting their vacations next week...but you would never know it. I've heard people say they will be working from home and *gasp* even offering to come in and work in their off time! Have we not earned an f-ing vacation? Take a damn break! Relax! I'm sure the weapons of mass destruction will still be here in one piece when you come back....I'm sorry....but I just can't bring myself to work during vacation--even if they are paying me...I will be starting my vacation next Friday, and no, there is no way for you to find me. Send me an email and I'll check them when I return...

...i wonder what the chances are that the water in my office sink contains lead? I make tea with that water at least twice a day...and this building was made by GOD on the 6th day so Adam and Eve would have shelter *I swear...it's that old...* the water does smell funny when I turn on the sink, but doesn't taste out of the ordinary, but you never know. I'll probably go to the bathroom one day and my pee will be glowing green...

.....guess only time will tell...

I'll be loving you until...

Musiq Soulchild is like a boyfriend that disappoints and makes you want to walk away....but you can't stay mad for long and soon you're all in love again **yea, I related my relationship with Musiq's music to an actual relationship....sue me...**

For like 3 months I was NOT anticipating his new album *OnMyRadio*...I had that one eyebrow raised look when I saw his first single...like, 'oh HELL no...Musiq, what the fcuk??' I felt like he sold out on what had made him successful to begin with....I hated him for my assumption.

But after a while, the single did grow on me **it's something I can bump when I'm driving..i *heart* bass! ** then when the second single dropped I was anticipating the album again...it was a typical Musiq track THANK GOODNESS.

So I've been listening to this album for a few days now **bless Europeans and their early release dates** and I'm pleasantly surprised. It had a few WTF tracks...but for the most part, it's typical Musiq. It reminds me of *Soulstar*: a few that was like 'huh??' but if you give it a few spins, you hear his style in it.

I can't be mad long....I've been a fan since the afrocentric, big fro days. People are allowed to change..and the music will always reflect that. Shit, when I started listening to Musiq, I wouldn't touch HipHop with a 10 foot pole....now it is the genre of more than 70% of my music collection. I changed...my music reflects such....but one thing never changes...

I *heart* MUSIC SOULCHILD!

***peace.love.music***

Is it 6 o'clock yet?

Cause I'm ready to go home! I don't understand how people can sit at a desk in front of a computer screen for 9+ hours straight! And that's no exaggeration...the guy who sits across from my cube sits and looks at his computer screen for longer than I'm here everyday! I'm here 9 hours everyday...he's here at least 10...i think he gets up once a day to pee or something. He doesn't move for lunch...to get a snack...no meetings...noone stops by to visit...nothing...he just sits there...

Meanwhile, I'm back and forth all day! Talking with people, going to meetings, lab work, lunch, anything to keep from going stir crazy...and I still manage to EVERYDAY...

I wonder what people like that do all day? Ain't enough work in the world...

A day's worth of random ramblings: part deux

2:30pm...

I'm listening to Common's new album, UNIVERSAL MIND CONTROL, for the first time *Common never disappoints...this album has excellent production*

Track 2--Punch Drunk Love--going pretty good...great beat...nice music...Common flow...great...

PAUSE

...is that...wait...please no...

FUCK

autotune??? Kanye WHY?! I love Kanye singing raw and out of tune! He starts hanging out with them T-Wayne clowns and lost his GODDAMN MIND! i haven't listened to all of 808s & Heartbreak yet...but I do admit it is really good *I've dubbed it 'The Art of Autotune'*

But do I have to hear Kanye Autotune EVERY FUCKING THING HE APPEARS IN NOW?!

...it's becoming an epidemic and the downfall of alot of good music...

.....the autotune must die.....

A day's worth of random ramblings: part un

So...it's 11:30am and i'm sitting here listening to John Legend's new album, 'Evolver' **good listen BTW** and what a surprise...Brandy is featured on the album. You know, Brandy used to have the bomb ass career ** WHAT?! 'Almost Doesn't Count'??? 'Sittin Up In My Room'??? Fresh to def she was...** But lately, Brandy & her half assed career revival is just pitiful. All she's worth is a feature...on someone else's album. Maybe she just stick to that...

I don't think i could make it thru another Brandy album **except 'Never Say Never' or 'Brandy'** but hearing her featured on someone else's album is nice...

....assures me she's still alive...without the agony of watching her album crash and burn...

For a good time, Call ME...

....ummm....what the fuck do I look like? Why is it that every weekend I'm the one who get's the random ass texts/phone calls from folk I haven't heard from in weeks/months/years[??] asking me what's poppin on any given night in the city? Do I have 'Party Animal' tattooed across my fucking forehead??? And what makes you think that even if I was partying I would be partying with you? If I was planning on taking you along on a night out on the town with me, you would have BEEN received a phone call/text. I hate that shit...

....yet I digress....

I'm nice and fat **like that's a change...** and I've made it through this Thanksgiving unscathed...I actually had a good time seeing all of my crazy *and I do mean CrAzY* family. They were crazily HILARIOUS! I did receive something like the third degree about some things *a boo, lifestyle, lack of invites, etc* but I made it!

...time to mentally prepare for next year...

I've been telling everyone for weeks that I was preparing to get up early and go fight the crazy housewives on black Friday so that I could get me a TV. I was really prepared to do it yall! I'd been practicing my boxing moves...my karate and my ka-raz-ay...I was gonna beat a bitch DOWN for a cheap TV!

**sigh**Well I got my TV...courtesy of Walmart.com...I know I know...I was all prepared to get up...then I took a nap....BAD CHOICE. I woke up at 4 **the time I planned to get up**...thought about it...and was like, "Do I honestly need to get up and fight these crazy hoes for a TV I can find online?" So my version of Black Friday blowout shopping was getting up at 4 pm...sitting up in my bed...and ordering my TV....direct from the internet.

...I got my TV...it was marked down...I don't have to carry it up the steps...and I don't have cut, bruise, or footprint on me...now THAT'S how you shop Black Friday!!

***peace.love.music***

Sometimes you just need a lil pick-me-up...

...and I wonder to myself ....I say:

self? How long will it be before I get my pick-me-up? It seems like we've spent so much time looking after other people that we have completely lost focus of what's important...SELF

....I'm sitting here, staring at Almond M&Ms *that I don't even eat*, looking at the last date on my blog *few days shy of a total month*, and wondering where why I STILL have no new music on my Touch *AHHHHH*...

That was pretty much my rock bottom: NO NEW MUSIC....I've completely spun out of control....I've allowed myself to be completely caught up in useless obsessions that I didn't even notice.

I'm back.I took the pill.the pick-me-up.no.not the 5 hour energy.I'm feeling much.much.much.mucho better.

I'm bout to starting downloading....um....I mean...looking for and purchasing music...it always makes me feel better to uncover something new.

I'm back online...so check for me muthafuckaaaaaaaassssss!!!!

*peace.love.music*

...i'm still going to hang on to the M&Ms..at least, for a few more days...

A Michael Jackson Impression has never looked better...

Q-Tip **Move**

...well maybe I'm being biased...but I don't care...FUCK YOU...

If I was, like, 10 years older I'd be laid up somewhere with Q-Tip bearing all his big headed babies...hell, I'd do that shit now...

*Q-Tip is my husband...he just doesn't know it yet*

*peace.love.music*

....i decided....

...that I'm gonna be a random ass person today....


I spent almost 3 full days in the bed.literally.


television [save for the news.all the news] sucks monkey balls...but I can't stop watching.


I've been slacking on my musical pimpin.downloading like crazy.but nothing makes the touch.not on purpose...I've been in super lazy mode.


if they made me into a super hero, I'd be LaZy WoMaN.able to leap tall buildings...when ever she gets to it.faster than a tortoise...running backwards.


aaah well.the laziness will end.tomorrow...


I don't understand why all of a sudden McCain has decided to stop bashing Obama's character.does he think that may help him win at the last minute.boo, you have already fucked your campaign up.shall I list the reasons why?sure? okay:

• you waited til your 150th bday to decide to run for president
• you neglected to push the issues you care about
• instead, you decided to talk about your lack of full range of motion in your arms due to being a POW
• you look like the man who tamed the dinosaurs, and then ate the ones still roaming after the big bang
• you picked the WORSE woman to run with
• she just learned the word 'maverick' and now she won't stop saying it
• why did you teach her that word
• you called Obama 'That One'
• I could go on...but my blog may not post because I would run out of memory

I had a bomb ass weekend.even though most of it was featured live from my IKEA bed.

somewhere in my present life I was a vegetarian.don't worry doubters.I haven't given in to the animal flesh.but I have lost track.I should get back to that...

working from home:worst decision an employer could give to an employee.WORST.

columbus day???what the fuck is columbus day???if I've ever had a day off for columbus day, it was too far back to even know who columbus was.and why the FUCK are parades being rolled off in his honor.guess white americans LOVE the birth of america.all I seem to remember are the small pox blankets.trail of tears.and slave ships.GOD BLESS THE USA...or something like that.

I was serious about going to Canada.any takers???

*...and it don't stop...*

*got the randomness to make your body rock*

**peace.love.music**

...brokeness tend to create an upside...

On a much lighter note...I had a GRAND weekend...well, it's more like the best week ever:

I was able to get a lot of work done because I worked from home most of the week...and I got to hang out with someone special...who shall remain nameless at this time...

Friday...well, Friday was a lil stressfull because I had to drive to Baltimore.during rush *afternoon*.to stand in line for an extra hour.but it was all worth it just to see ESTELLE, GYM CLASS HEROES, and THE LEGENDARY ROOTS CREW!!! They gave the best performances! Estelle can really sing!! Like forreal forreal! I still don't know what was good with the whole rapping thing...but her vocals are off the chain! And her personality is so great! If Ling and I were a trio, Estelle would be the 3rd...
Then Gym Class came out...I can't say they were better than the last time I saw them...but I had a much better view...Travie was crazy as always...and Sashi looked like he had jump off of a slave ship and swam all the way to America to play guitar for the show...I don't know who is stylist is...but he needs to fire them...
Then The Roots came out...kinda mad at their performance...They didn't have the whole crew...mainly because the stage wouldn't have fit all of them on it....I saw them last year so I wasn't trippin too much...we left before their performance was over cause I was tired...

Saturday I didn't do much of anything...I PAID RENT and cleaned up my house...I went to the leasing office to drop off the money orders and I told the lady I was off by 13 cents...that's $0.13.less than a dollar.less than a quarter. This bitch told me that I will receive a notice that we're short, and I can come in and write a check for the 13 cents...ARE YOU CRAZY?! are you crazy? 13 cents?? it gets that real over less than a quarter?! I got that shit in my pocket! I can't just give it to you?

People, if you see us on the street...pushing shopping carts and begging for food, know it's because we didn't pay 13 cents of rent and the Landlords don't take NO SHIT!

Then my Saturday got alot better because I got to spent it with someone *who shall remain nameless at this time*...we went to Fridays to have some drinks...and our asses...well, at least me...got tipsy like shit...then we went to the movies to see EAGLE EYE, which was a good ASS movie! Makes you reconsider every move you make....literally...this movie gets my sincere thumbs up!!

Today...I just laid around ALLLL day....watched TV, twisted my hair, cleaned my bathroom....nothing...Sunday is always the laze day...it's like mourning the oncoming work week...uhh...*gagging a lil bit*

*nights like this I wish...a hurricane would come and wash my work building away...*

**peace.love.music**

wake up wake up wake up...it's the 1st of the month...

sometimes....I wish Monopoly money was real and I could use it to pay bills...
OR
...I was one of those precious seeds of well-to-do parents who get all of their bills paid while they lay in a lap of luxury...

From the time we are children, adults should attach grownupship *yes, that's what I said, 'grownupship'* with a fucking SURGEON GENERAL's warning:

"CAUTION: being grown up causes extreme amounts of stress, with flair ups around the bill payment deadlines. Side effects of being grown up includes, but is not limited to: hair loss, reposessions, fucked up credit, depression, uninsured trips to the ER, brokeassness, bitchassness, alcoholism, heavy weed smoking, >>insert bad habit here<<, etc. Being grown up is not preventable and not curable, but can be treated with heavy amounts of begging, drug use, and alcohol..."

I mean...they do tell you...it ain't no joke being grown up and all...but damn. I'm sitting here, watching tv, writing, and sitting under the hair dryer *I'm an addict for tightly twisted locs...lol*, and stressing over where I'm gonna get the money to pay the rest of my bills this month...and the month just fucking began...

The first of the month is the biggest bitch I've ever met in my life...rent, credit cards, car note, utilities, phone, insurance...they can't ever, like, give you a month off for good payment behavior??? I make sure my shit is paid...and it always gets paid on time...but they starting to cut into my partying money. LOL

I don't know...mo' money mo' problems...

*cash rules everything around me...C.R.E.A.M. get the money*

*dolla dolla bill, yall*

**peace.love.music**

sooner or later it all comes crashing DOWN...

I'm sitting here watching VH1's 100 greatest hip hop records...and i'm buggin abolutely...
i.love.music.
i.love.hip hop.
Their rankings are out of wack *in my ever so humble opinion*, but nonetheless...I'm over here squealing everytime they play a record I haven't heard in at least a few months. squealing.

...but I digress...a bit...
it's funny, you know...whenever you get your life together and things are finally on track...everything and everyone that wanted to shit on your life before comes rushing back...

I don't have time for old bullshit...I'm on to bigger and better things now...sorry you missed your ticket to ride...

I just looked over and saw all the dust collecting on my guitar...it makes me a bit sad...I really need to get some lessons...cause I somewhat suck...lol

*none of this makes sense...but I don't care*

peace.love.music.